It's easier to fly when there's nothing on your back.

Still doesn't mean I won't get swept off my feet. It tends to happen occasionally. And I meet someone who's nice to hold hands with :)

The mind is a powerful thing. You can make it do whatever you want it to.

The only thing stopping you from going where you want to be, is you. So lay down your own path, with whatever bricks you want, with whatever method you want, whatever shape and direction you want. You are in the drivers seat.

Sex, Blogs, and Rock And Roll.

Sex exists? The concept of sex has almost expired in my mind. In fact it has temporarily very much expired.


I decided that working in Japan is an option in my life. In fact, at some point it will be a necessity.

New outlook.

When life takes a turn towards a direction that you don't want it to go towards. It means that you have change it. And thats what I'm going to do.

idiosunkrasia

Positivity. Positivity. Positivity.

Holla ACHOO!!!

San Diego. Vancouver. Philippines. Norway. Winnipeg. I want to go everywhere!

A cloud can appear as anything you want it to.

Do what you love. Love what you do. Do it for yourself. And nobody else.

Raw Addiction.

I realized this morning that it isn't my lack of significant other that's making me sad. I woke up with someone in my arms but I was still sad. There is something missing from my life and I don't know what it is. Or maybe my life has become too fast, and I need to learn to slow down. But now is not the time in my life to slow down. I'm just getting started.

I think monotony is starting to form in my life. I'm addicted to change. I need to go somewhere.

Descention.

I can't help but feel like my world is falling apart. I feel as if I did something wrong. I'm craving drink. And smoke.

The CD was good.

Dear Starbucks kid with the cute smile, that makes me blush a little. You look so sincere and sweet. I wish I knew your name.

Uh, Oh. Statticus got smart.

My bar has been raised 10 feet higher. Jump high boys. And don't trip. Because there are no second chances with me.

Broke my positive vibe rule.

There are many fish in the sea. And I am a shark.

The end? For now?

Happy vibes are levelling at about zero today. For the first time in almost 2 months, life doesn't feel so cheerful. No matter how hard I try.

Zoned out.

I sit here solitary. Inner silence impounding my head. The mess on my bed crinkles as I shuffle slowly. The slightest sounds seem so sharp. A fence has been erected today and it surrounds my inner core. It is strong and sturdy, rough and full of splinters, ready to leave slivers on hands that try to reach and understand the edifice of my mind. It cannot be altered. It has found comfort in where it lays, protecting me from the malice of humanity. A current bubble of peace and happiness, of which its soft bouncy exterior is inevitably bound to pop, but the timing of this is uncertain. So I watch the colors swirl in this happy bubble of mine, until the darkness of night robs me of its vibrance. But the sun arises and I can begin another day, another life.

Back on that loner anxiety tip.

Days are amazing. Nights alone are not. But I will make it, because all I need is a pen, paint, or a camera, and I will get through any night. Bring it on A.M.

I despise demineralized water.

Orange mint. Makes good cigarettes. Not so much water.

Whos turn?

"Find the biggest boulder and kick it, preferably in bare feet. Who's going to win? You or the boulder?"

If you don't let the boulder get to you, ignore the pain, stop kicking it, and walk away. You win.

Human after all.

I take back what I said about my heart feeling unbreakable. It's aching in the worst possible way.

"Listen Baby, your wish is my command."

"I thought I had it all together. But I was lead astray, the day you walked away. You were the clock, that was tickin in my heart. Changed my state of mind, that love's so hard to find."


And it plays over and over and over like a vinyl.

I can only become stronger.

Alas, another stepping stone has been overcome in my life. And I am completely grateful for every minute. Life is beautiful, and you just got to keep smiling. I love you, dearly, always.

Although when your heart feels unbreakable after so much repetitive aching, that may not be a good thing.