Tuesday, November 30, 2010
You keep my feet on the ground. Without you I'd be flying all over the place with no destination in mind, until my wings were too frail to fly, and I'd plummet somewhere that wouldn't feel right. You make my sleep alright. You make me smile all night.
Tonight I lined rows of crackers on a plate and melted shredded cheese over them. It reminded me of being with you.
Tuesday, November 23, 2010
Sunday, November 21, 2010
Every action you make is like planting a seed. From every action we make, something will grow. If you plant a watermelon seed, you'll grow a watermelon. If you plant a dandelion seed, you'll get a dandelion. Sometimes you intend to grow a daisy, but when the plant grows it's a thorny bush, because you planted the wrong seed. These are mistakes. Sometimes you grow weeds. These are vices. Sometimes we plant roses, love. Ultimately we plant our own seeds, so always look at the seed in your hand, before you plant it. If you don't want a weed, then don't plant one. If you want lots of daisies, then plant a lot of them. And water them.
I've come to appreciate everything I have so much more. But I can't hold back these lumps in my throat. I constantly feel like I want to cry. It's not fair. Why did this have to happen. Why now.
My life changes so much from here. I have no choice but to grow up.
Monday, November 15, 2010
I remembered that life is what you make it. I'm going to work my ass off in school and I'm going to love every minute of it. I came here to pursue my dreams and I'm not giving up. For anything in the world. My whole life all I've done is throw away my dreams. This time I'm going to cherish them. I've never told anyone to give up on a dream, I always tell them to keep working towards it and for once I need to take my own advice. I deserve this.
Never expect to gain what you don't put out in the world.
I'm going to put out a whole lot of love and smiles :)
and watch my world fall back together.
Because that is simply what it takes.
Strength of mind, love and compassion.
As long as you want it with your whole heart, it can happen and be real.
My heart is all in. In everything that I love and do.
Sadness, you will never own my heart. My mind is too strong.
Sunday, November 14, 2010
Thursday, November 11, 2010
Tuesday, November 9, 2010
My day was dim. My day was grey. But the light of your face, blew all my clouds away.
In the dimness of this homework tunnel, is a sparkling bright light at the end, and it consists of a sick pad I can call my home, a studio moulded by my hands, bright city lights out my window, having friends over for brews and skate vids over rad home made meals, hyphy beats and dancing on the balcony, eating lunch at every interesting spot downtown, walks on the beach, catching every good movie, and ending all nights in warm arms.