Wednesday, March 31, 2010

A day of personal accomplishments.

The student councillor at the university suggested today that I pursue a degree in studio arts. It includes classes such as english, drama, painting, a science such as physics or geology, art history, photography all summer. All sounds right up my alley for a pretty epic year.

I also discovered that there is a natural foods section in Superstore- "Ah. Ahhhhh. AHHHHHHH!!!!!"- I can do all my grocery shopping in one section now instead of cherry picking organic labeled products out of every aisle. Go superstore. Thanks for getting with the game.

I am dying my hair tonight. Spontaneous decision. Goin dark as usual.

SBC photo annual = Night at the roastery ogling my dreams = Win.

And now i'm currently cooking up a concoction of Romagna four-cheese tortellini with organic tomato and mushroom sauce and veggie ground round. I have absolutely no idea what to expect but it sounded like a good idea. (After eating it I conclude that it was an awesome idea.)

Copped a sick flannel at Value Village as well as a rad little present of gratitude for mom, a little "VIVI MEXICO" ornament.

Uploaded yet another photo album.

I bought my Wayfarer glasses today. 10 days and they reside on my face. With transition lenses. Not to mention I received a pretty epic deal on them and a pair of 'Mike Burns' glasses.

Played my first game of skate in a few weeks. I am anticipating the day I become less rusty, nevertheless it felt ruthlessly amazing.

I love grocery shopping. I really can't wait to move out on my own again. This time, my own place.

In conclusion, the day I took off work was the best day this week so far.

Tuesday, March 30, 2010

I'm so dizzy, my head is spinnin.

I need to take a day to stay home and just chill with myself one of these days. It feels like it's been an eternity since I've done that.

Monday, March 29, 2010

Lets do the time warp again.

Never bend backwards to those who make themselves out to be higher than you. The only person who places them on a higher pedestal is yourself. When you remove this pedestal from your mind, you can be whoever you want to be, and no-one can stop you.

Thursday, March 25, 2010

When did my life get so busy?

I don't remember the last time I took a day to relax. Relax meaning spending a day inside, and then continuing to stay home for the evening and watch t.v shows and movies by myself. Or drink tea and read books all night. I'm constantly around people. Its wearing out my mind. I am engulfed by my need to be around friends all the time. I need to live on my own where I can control my own life at my own pace. I miss sprawling out on my living room floor and falling asleep to movies. I miss cleaning my kitchen. I miss cooking my own meals. I miss having a crew of friends over until the wee hours of the morning, drinking beers or playing video games, or simply doing whatever........ah fuck it. I need to fucking sleep.

Thursday, March 18, 2010

Details of a thread.

Today I deemed it necessary to hang a Broadway Roastery cup in my room by a hemp string. The Roastery Cup is a symbolism of unity and is such an integral part of my life, and the first day I stepped foot in there was a life-changing, pivotal moment. I spend so many precious hours there with my closest friends, and I meet a myriad of amazing people there on a daily basis. Everybody I meet there is extremely genuine and unique.

Tomorrow I'm going on a maniacal shopping binge. I am executing my first book purchase since I've started my job, which is going to be an illustrative interpretation of Bob Dylan songs. I am then going to proceed to make my way to the spec shop to buy some Wayfarers, and putting prescription lenses in them because I am blind as a bat flying through a field in daylight. I'm going to buy some earrings and increase my guage size, because I've been rocking screws in my ears for way longer than necessary. Following that I'm going to buy the beginnings of my spring wardrobe, as well as an external hard drive to stock pile the collective photos over the last year that I'm afraid is going to be the death of my laptop if I don't transfer them soon. Yup, my day, and paycheck, is completely planned out.

Art shows at Flint move me. I'm glad I went.

So does the movie American Beauty that I was privileged enough to see for the first time today. I overlooked the cover of the movie and never took the time to watch it, teaching me one the most repeated lessons in life, never judge a DVD by its cover. That movie reflects my thoughts on life to a T at many points.

Anyways time is ticking, and I'm lacking sleep, 9 hours of sleep in 72 hours to be exact, and I want to be awake as much as I possibly can to get work done before I succumb to fatigue. Adieu.

Wednesday, March 17, 2010

The things you don't have are the most appealing.

I think I'm in love with the unattainable.

Tuesday, March 16, 2010

Apple cherries.

My life is a tangle of confusion. One minute I think I'm flying, the next I think I'm drowning. When I'm surrounded by many, I still feel alone. I am doused in my own thoughts, which overpower me. Like vines, the more I fight them the tighter they get , around my mind, overwhelming me with the world. I can see, but only in a limited sense. I am very nearsighted. Mentally and phyisically. I cannot see far ahead. The path ahead is fuzzy. There is a mist, and it bellows my name, envelopes my senses, and releases me into chaos, disguised as composure and order. I am following a map, but the roads have no names, and there is no north, east, south or west. It is blank and I have a pen. I am drawing my own path, but my hands are shaky, and the roads don't always go in the direction I intend to draw them towards. I am traveling across a golden prairie, a strawberry coloured sunset glows in the air, dispersing colors through clouds as translucent drops of water float down to the ground. Liquid gemstones reflecting a convex image of the world. Everything appears smaller and brighter. This is the utopia in my mind, full of fall coloured trees. The rest of the world is coloured like spring: Pastels, bright blue skies, clouds so puffy and white, with flashing silver linings. I remember the world looked like this, in the eyes of a child. In the eyes of this child. The world was so different to me. And only now when the sweet smell of foliage enters my lungs, can I see the world from this view. This view so broad and clear. As if at the top of a canyon, looking down on an entire world. I'm floating and I don't know where I'm going. The soft breeze is drifting me away, to mossy havens, where its soft and pine needles fragrance the air, gently. I need to get away to a place like this. Where I can only hear the voices of nature. No distracting sounds to lead my mind astray. At one point in time, the world seemed to make sense to me. Now its just a jigsaw puzzle, and I have misplaced a few pieces. My mind is always on the run. I need to lie down, and rest for a minute.

I love writing. I love putting words together. They don't need to be understandable. They just need to project imagery. Imagery of what I am seeing. I cannot see the world for what it is. I imagine it from my own perspective. And my perspective is so different from reality. I think I like it better that way...

Sunday, March 14, 2010

If you regret, then spend a day doing things that you will never regret.

Today was a day of radness. Days are so much better when plans are not involved. Spontaneous Sundays mean trying something new. And today I learned how to longboard. I swore I never would. But you know what, open mindedness makes life that more exciting.

Why lower standards? Things are better when they're high.

I don't usually do the celebrity crush thing. But Zack Efron in 17 again makes me feel like I have my very first crush all over again.

Thursday, March 11, 2010

Telling tales.

These lights are flashing, pulsating in the night. Clicking in my ears, a soothing yet dull metronome. My wings are aching from flying all day. But I have found a place to perch tonight, in this branch under the full moon, the stars dotting brightly across the sky. The navy sky glows and I hear crickets. All I can hear right now is crickets... my mind is blank and calm.

Wednesday, March 10, 2010


Relaxation is necessary. Taking time to chill and smell the flowers is worth it sometimes. You never know what scents you'll miss.

Today I conquered the beast. The beast named, my bedroom.

Izzy showed me this video today. It's twisted. But it's twistedly beautiful.

Tuesday, March 9, 2010

Me and Jazzy Jeff got kicked outta Kansas.

The solution to all problems, is, The Roastery. And a single Americano. And possibly a good book, with plenty of pictures.

Monday, March 8, 2010

Labels, Labels, Labels.

I don't mind being labelled. Everyone's entitled to their own opinion.

My heart is racing.

It's alone, frantic, and doesn't know what to do with itself. When it's not distracted with photos, friends, and creating things, it longs for another half. But it won't open up to anyone neither. Stupid heart.

Saturday, March 6, 2010

It's easier to fly when there's nothing on your back.

Still doesn't mean I won't get swept off my feet. It tends to happen occasionally. And I meet someone who's nice to hold hands with :)

The mind is a powerful thing. You can make it do whatever you want it to.

The only thing stopping you from going where you want to be, is you. So lay down your own path, with whatever bricks you want, with whatever method you want, whatever shape and direction you want. You are in the drivers seat.

Thursday, March 4, 2010

Sex, Blogs, and Rock And Roll.

Sex exists? The concept of sex has almost expired in my mind. In fact it has temporarily very much expired.

I decided that working in Japan is an option in my life. In fact, at some point it will be a necessity.

Monday, March 1, 2010

New outlook.

When life takes a turn towards a direction that you don't want it to go towards. It means that you have change it. And thats what I'm going to do.